About Me...

I'm new to this blogging thing.

I've recently read "The Shack" and "So You Don't Want to Go to Church Anymore". Both of them have spoken to me so loudly.

I've been a church goer for most of my life (with the exception of a few years when I was rebelling) and in the past several years my heart has grown increasingly heavy with the disappointment in the church as it relates to the church I believe Jesus intended us to be.

I'm not anywhere near where I want to be spiritually (sometimes I feel like a baby drinking milk) but in some ways I have come so far. I've long wanted to be in a place where I am dependent on God and recognize His thoughts and whispers. I want to be part of a body who reaches out to others and who helps each other on their way. Helping - not hurting - not judging - not criticizing.

I guess the thing is - I'm all alone. I'm a single mom who has lived her life for her kids who are almost all grown. I've neglected the social side of life and now since I have left my church (where I didn't have any significant 'outside the walls' relationships after 14 years) I have no one. I tend to be a loner anyway and very independent - something I'm really wanting to change. I'm at a place where I'm starting to understand how important relationships are. My mom used to tell me growing up that no man is an island and I've finally reached the place where I actually believe her - at least no happy man (woman).

I can see how God has worked in me. I'm very frustrated with the snail's pace at which I move. While I'm in a better place than I have been, I have SO FAR to go - and I've lived most of my life - past that half century mark. I'm anxious to evolve, yet need to have peace with God's timing.

So the published journey begins...